My Story

All the itty bitty details! For those of us who love that sort of thing!

Spirit Speaks

I feel and converse with the Spirit World.  It is a Spiritual gift I’ve always had like my mother, grandmother, and great-grandmother Jenny before me.  I grew up feeling watched, like I lived in a haunted house.  I changed in my own bedroom like I was in the girls locker room at school, never feeling really alone.  These experiences were overwhelming when I lived alone for a few months in college.  The spirit world was SO much noisier when no one else was around!! I would try to drown it out by turning on every light, the tv, and even the radio too! It became so unsettling I moved to a new place with roommates again and found peace and quiet was restored! :)

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When my paternal Grandfather died in the summer of 2000 I was working in Island Park, ID for the summer.  His spirit came to me that night, woke me up from sleeping, and told me he was leaving and wanted to say goodbye.  While it seemed so obvious to me at the time that he would want to say goodbye, I missed the fact that not every other member of my family had had the same experience.

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I grew up in the LDS church and auditioned to be a young performing missionary in Nauvoo in early 2002.  I never struggled to memorize a monologue but this time it just wouldn’t stick! Alone in my apartment of 6 students, I asked for help to get prepared for this audition!  Five or Six ancestors with Giant Smiles showed up!!!

Oh wow! Thanks you guys!!!

I had my monologue memorized in  5 minutes! I went to bed feeling so happy and prepared! The next day at auditions I wasn’t even called back to recite that monologue. Feeling so defeated and wondering how in the world the line in my patriarchal blessing that read “my talents and abilities would be special to me as I fulfill my mission” would come to pass if I didn’t serve as a performing missionary?!?! Those were my talents and abilities weren’t they?!?!?!

Oh the irony I see now! 

The ancestors told me that I didn’t need to live in Nauvoo to learn about them, that they were with me whenever I needed and I could learn about them anytime.  I didn’t understand but I was grateful they didn’t see me as a failure.  The next day we sang “God be with you til we meet again” as the closing song at church.  As we sang they said their goodbyes and left my awareness.

Now I understand that the talents and abilities my blessing was speaking of were not singing and acting! They were the gifts of mediumship, discernment, and being a bridge between the physical and the spiritual worlds.

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In the spring of 2012 my maternal grandmother was ready to graduate this life.  With two very young children in the car I debated driving from Utah to California where she lived to see her and say goodbye in person.  I wrestled with the amount of work it would be to make the trip alone with my babies and ultimately decided it was more than I could manage at the time.  Sad and grieving I turned my car for home. Though her body was still breathing, my grandma’s spirit suddenly showed up in my car! She asked me “Jenny, will you let me go?”  Sobbing now I told her “Of course I will let you go! I just really wanted to see you and say goodbye in person and let you know how much I love you and how grateful I am for you and the many roles you’ve played in my life. I just really wanted to tell you that before you left.”  She smiled and Thanked me and told me how much she loved me as well and then she was off!  Her body stopped breathing early the next morning.

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When pregnant with my fourth child I had the honor and privilege of taking care of my then 99 year old paternal grandmother.  One particular night my grandfather was at my side in spirit singing “You are so beautiful to me” to my grandmother as I helped her bathe and dress for bed.

I later shared this with my younger brother who stopped me and said “Jenny, I don’t think what you experience everyone experiences. I think you have a gift.  Maybe you need to develop this gift”.

Stunned.

Develop this gift?? How do you even do that??

Its one thing to have the spirit world come knock on your door in the form of loved ones and ancestors, its a whole other enchilada to open the door to the spirit world and go wandering around in there!

What I’ve learned

Now 11 years later with so many highs and lows behind me I’ve learned that the spirit world isn’t all hearts and stars and rainbows. Everything exists there.

E•v•e•r•y•t•h•i•n•g. 

It is a place of infinite possibility where all dreams may come true! Sometimes we dream our worst nightmares into reality too.

I’ve learned that our thoughts are not our own.  Every thought you have does not arise from your soul.  It’s like the ticker tape at the bottom of the screen when you watch the news. And it seems to me that most anyone or anything can and will write messages that flash across your mind.  Which thoughts to dismiss and which to grab onto is an integral part of developing discernment and expanding awareness.

I’ve learned that ancestral healing is real.  We can and do change the minds and hearts of our ancestors as we learn, grow, and make decisions. This process can be vague and general or laser pointed.

I’ve learned that our ancestors want to love, support, and speak to us!!! They would much rather speak to you directly than speak through a medium.  We can all learn how to converse with the spirit world.  It was our original language after all.

I’ve learned how to navigate blindly in the dark.  I’ve been on more personal journeys and vision quests than I can count.  I know what spiritual truth smells like and I chase it’s origin whole-heartedly and bravely! 

Where I am now

I smell and taste the fruit of everything spiritual now. Every thought, every word, every feeling, every idea….does this empower and enlighten? Does this enslave and ensnare?  The refinement of my Discernment is something I am So Grateful for!!!  It is the best gift I have to offer my spirit family, whether in a body or not.

My hope is to help you connect more deeply to your soul. To learn to trust it and to develop a relationship with our Divine family: Mother, Father, Brother, and Sister.  To know you are never alone and you always have more options than you think!!!

From this place you can consciously co-create your dreams and learn to navigate in the darkness with your own spirit-team of guides, angels, ancestors, and guardians.

We are all SO Loved! More than we can feel or understand at present.  Love surrounds us every moment, in all things.  Let’s co-create a world of Love, Peace, Balance, Harmony, Bliss, and JOY together!

I know it’s possible.

It’s our home, our natural state of being-ness.

Heaven CAN be a place on Earth.

Just like cute Janene Brady wrote in her songs for ‘Joy School’…..”Oh boy, I’ve got Joy, I do, Do you? It starts in my heart, and spreads to my head in a minute or two! And did you know it can grow on my toes? And keep my knees so they don’t freeze! I feel so neat from my head to my feet, when I’ve got Joy!”

I’ve got Joy and I want to Share it! 

I want it to overflow from my heart into every thought, word, action, and interaction that I have. I am building a “Community of Unity”,  in my body, in my home, in my local community, and hopefully globally with my whole spirit family!

If your arrow is pointed there as well, Let’s be friends!!!

What I have to offer

If you need help exploring what your arrows are and how to point them,

I got you.

If you need spiritual tools to navigate the darkness you find yourself turned around and upside-down in,

I got you.

If you need a safe place to land for a minute to recalibrate and regain your strength before making new choices,

I got you.

If you need a witness of all the amazing goodness in your heart trying to find its aligned ‘best life’,

I got you.

If you need a reboot and a reconnection to the Love of your Divine family,

I got you.

If you need a reminder of God’s loving voice,

I got you.

If you feel a wiggle of something inside and don’t know what to make of it,

I got you!

Exploring the spirit world is my jam! It lights me up and fills me with Joy like nothing else.  It is deeply nourishing on a soul level for me to live in my purpose and to commune with our spiritual family.  Literally FOOD for my Soul!

I share the fruits of my journeys in the hope that they may be beneficial to you! I love to sit down together at the “feast” of spirit prepared for us by our Heavenly Parents.  In the midst of affliction, my table is, has, and always will be spread by them.  I love them, I know them, I trust them, and I want to share that Joy with you! 

***To all the teachers I’ve had along the way thus far, Thank you. Thank you for the large and small ways you have influenced me and shaped my experience and understanding here. 

If the bridge has been burned between us, I am sorry for my part in that. I love you and I am grateful for the gift of the lessons I’ve gained. I learn from them and will do all I can to not repeat those same patterns. I also share the wisdom I’ve gained to support others for their highest good.

I’m not a perfect person and I’m not a guru. I’m a sister, a friend, a witness, a wisdom keeper, a guide, and a somebody who does something sometimes! ;)

My heart is full of Love, my head is full of Wisdom, and my sights are set on Unity and Harmony both internally and externally. 

Let’s build Heaven on Earth together.

One heart, one connection, one feather at a time. 🫶🪶